She doodles with her eyes -- skywriting -- rainbow is her ink -- Her eyes are different -- the way she looks around -- spider-like dangling thingy -- Her eyes are like sparklers -- Dunno -- Obsession is not a good thing she says -- What do you know about me -- I say -- I know something about you -- Like what she growls -- I say -- I know everything about you -- Everything? Everything? Did you just say everything? I said: Yep. You bloody moron. Are you right out of some psychiatric care -- someone like you should be instititutianized for like zillions of years. And, Wham! She hangs up. I feel as if the hangman's noosed has been dunno -- I dunno what to do -- I have no spunk left in me to ring her up again -- I vroom around just like that -- totally shattered -- I am not prudent -- dunno -- I am a black bboard jungle school like person who behaves like a juvnile offender -- dunno -- she's real old school tie type from some harvard and all that -- but she never corrects my pronounciation -- never says anything about my torn and taterred shoes -- or my unkempt hair -- my gypsy-like hippy-like way of life -- I dont realize but all of a sudden as if I have time travelled strak trek like to the same place we call explorative -- she's there sobbing -- she looks up -- lifts her head for a sec and g -- i dunno -- I sum up some courage and rattle out that i am sorry i always make people unhappy people pause filler pause filler pause filler people what? cat got your tongue? you mean thats like fish eggs for us same like for them what do you call that appetizer very ritzy hotels you get i read that in a riffraff pulp magazine -- she laughs wiping her tears with the back of her hand -- you know moron i am not some big convent school brat -- you are a nice girl i know you dont mean to hurt me -- i dunno -- dont you know what iam getting at -- theres nothing no -- then whats the point in all this -- i dunno when i first say you kind of thing -- i dunno -- lets just stop meeting -- everything -- incommuicado you and i -- erased -- amenesia -- we will get over it -- theres nothing i meet many peopel bve veeryt everyday -- not even smoke signals? #$$@!#$$%% expletives profanities i retort -- she says get lost -- didnt you hear me is that greek to you or latin or french or german mister sisyphus mister incognito tongue twister? looks at me with puzzling eyes -- weirdo why do you wear those suspenders -- this oh -- what i forgot my manual -- meaning what manual -- manual my manual of life why i do what i do -- the answer is there -- where did you keep it -- dont you keep it with you all the time -- isnt it that precious -- yep i bargained -- swapped it for something -- meaning -- she said the manual it said you want me or you want her -- i asked it her who she it said your soul mate -- soul mate yes soul mate s-o-u-l mate -- echoing i dunno i walk out of my shanty -- and it follows me you have to answer me now -- now now -- tick tock tick tock -- there something theres something there see take a look -- i see a spider dangling from its fine thin silky thread -- thats her -- that black -- is that a black widow -- venomous poinous whats the difference anyways -- it laughs she would tell you the difference -- then what about you -- shes it is sad -- turns and is goign back slowfoottedly i hear footsteps splash pool of water wait wait wait poof then i go back the spider she aint there oh i am totally dejected now -- i look up -- starry-eyed shes like that -- and theres drizzle and all of a sudden theres a wdown downpour of drizze....and rainbow...water clogged alley -- a kitty meows and darts for shelter under a...I fumble into my pockets i find a one rupee coin i go the telephone booth and call her she picks up after half a ring -- #@$$%%$#@ ##$%@ wheres ur place my place where where do you stay fine i am coming wait for me outside here this place its not suitable for you she says i know youre not my suitable boy i said wait wait wait trrrrrrrrrrr static i hang up...cradle sound..raindowns on the half broken booth window...i sit there tick tock tick tock i am kidding with her a dervish to be more precise and apt a whirling dervish told me that you d meet her how would i recognize her orbits he said you naive soul orbits orbits yes i keep mum the aura of this sagely person is such that he senses my reverence smiles when she dangles her eyes saturn saturn yes jupiter jupter yes mars mars they jump hop go into a frenzy yeah a cosmic whirling cosmic whirling her eyes is she that big sorcercers yeah..destiny serentidpity shes yes..spider al ankabaut go shes coming footsteps splash wait wait wait