Monday, May 7, 2018

doxx

doxed or doxxed; doxing or doxxing; doxes or doxxes

slang : to publicly identify or publish private information about (someone) especially as a form of punishment or revenge

On general principles, I support Internet anonymity and look askance at people's efforts to “out” or “dox” anonymous Web commenters whose views they disagree with, much less for simple sport. —Damon Poeter,  PC Magazine,  15 Oct. 2012

This isn't the first time the LAPD has been doxxed. In 2011, a group affiliated with the online hackers Anonymous claimed responsibility for posting personal information of more than 40 officers, including their home addresses, campaign contributions, property records, and names of family members after they claimed the LAPD oppressed them by shutting down the Occupy L.A. Movement. —Christine Pelisek,  The Daily Beast,  13 Mar. 2013

— doxing or doxxing noun

… “doxxing”—the term used for the troll harassment technique of finding and then posting a user's sensitive personal information, including addresses, phone numbers, and even Social Security numbers. —Harry Bruinius,  The Christian Science Monitor,  5 Feb. 2015

Saturday, May 5, 2018

Disorientation and Panic attacks

Twilight i.e the period just before it becomes completely dark in the evening -- or where the lights are dimmed; And, cars' etc. horns honking: I get disoriented. I get panic attacks. That makes me flee from that place. And, that affects my everyday decision-making.

Thursday, May 3, 2018

pariah

An outcast.

‘they were treated as social pariahs’

A member of an indigenous people of southern India originally functioning as ceremonial drummers but later having a low caste.

a person who is not accepted by a social group, especially because he or she is not liked, respected, or trusted

a member of a low caste of southern India

one that is despised or rejected : outcast

a person who is hated and rejected by other people

Messiah complex

A delusional mental condition in which a person believes that he or she is the true Messiah; (more generally) a belief held by any person that he or she is supremely powerful and capable of anything.

stream of consciousness

a style in literature that is used to represent a character's feelings and thoughts as they experience them, using long, continuous pieces of text without obvious organization or structure:

a stream-of-consciousness novel/style

A literary style in which a character's thoughts, feelings, and reactions are depicted in a continuous flow uninterrupted by objective description or conventional dialogue. James Joyce, Virginia Woolf, and Marcel Proust are among its notable early exponents.

as modifier ‘a stream-of-consciousness monologue’

A person's thoughts and conscious reactions to events, perceived as a continuous flow. The term was introduced by William James in his Principles of Psychology (1890).

the continuous unedited chronological flow of conscious experience through the mind

interior monologue

a usually extended representation in monologue of a fictional character's thought and feeling

‘Other authors have experimented with putting their stream-of-consciousness narrators in motion with mixed results, since the awkwardness of self narrated movement introduces a dissonance into the narration.’
‘As a result the book is fiery, but not entirely cohesive; at times it resembles a stream-of-consciousness monologue.’
‘This makes it feel stream-of-consciousness even though the arrangements are serious, the extra quirks - toy percussion and piano, a choppy Spanish guitar - woven in with care.’
‘Updating the stream-of-consciousness technique of James Joyce and Virginia Woolf, Shaw transforms his dreams into a droll epic crammed with postwar American flotsam and jetsam.’
‘It makes one think it was a kind of stream of consciousness, a dream writing.’
‘Bleached of punctuation, the words flow freely in a stream of consciousness manner reminiscent of James Joyce and Virginia Woolf.’
‘Did Basu want to use stream of consciousness as her literary métier?’
‘She was a pioneer of the stream-of-consciousness technique, narrating the action through the mind of her heroine Miriam.’
‘In addition to that, this time I have more of an idea of what to expect in terms of the style in which the book is written, the whole stream of consciousness, free association thing.’
‘It was the most challenging of the pieces with stream-of-consciousness dialogue and monologues freely mixed together as a man and a woman meet on a beach.’

Wednesday, May 2, 2018

Reprint: Shayer-e-Inquilaab

TUESDAY, MAY 2, 2017

baat ek hi thi
matlab bay-wajeh hazaar hue

takraar hi ki baat thi
fiasle hazaar hua

woh tow wahi thi
yeh yaha bay-wajeh badnaam hua

ranjish tow bilkul nahi thi
es rawaiyya ka mohbbat naam bhi tow na hua

dekhti bhi nahi thi
enhay pata nahi kya gumaan hua

magoor bahut thi
haa haa woh tow theek hai -- par yeh khat ka jawaab tow na hua

khamoshi si se baat karti thi
haa haa dewaar ke bhi kaan hote hai -- ab samja -- mein kaise badnaam hua

raaz faash karni ki dhamki tow bas yu hi thi
yeh sar kafan baadh ke -- pata nahi kis maidaan-e-jung ki taraf hua

mudh ke dekhti bhi nahi thi
yeh wahi tahre rahe -- koi aise lauta -- aisa kabhi hua

galat fahmhi thi
mujeh saari umr iljaam diya -- yeh kya insaaf hua

kho kyu gayi thi
ab kyu -- haa ab mili kyu ho - khair -- yeh zoya kaisa naam hua

haa mayra takhalluz

haa takahlluz mein hi uljhi thi
jhujhluhat say kah rahi thi -- inquilaabi -- aisa kab kaha koi shayer hua

haa haa masroof thi
woh toh kar raha tha -- unse se shikyat kar rahi -- haa dekho -- ab bas gahen ho gaya -- es ka matlab kya hua

mehdi nahi siyahi thi
ghazal -- tarranum -- yeh kaisa maujisa hua

haa haa bilkul -- sau feesadi -- tanziya muskurat thi
enhay dekho -- likh rahe hai -- yeh atish fisha kaha hua -- yeh phir kar bala kaha hua

sab ka bhala chahti thi
ab kaun kya kare agar en ka waqt bura hua

chipha kar rahkti thi
kuch likha hi nahi tha -- aise khat-o-kitabat -- yeh kya silsila hua

ezhaar hi nahi karti thi
yeh kaisa gila hua

Tuesday, May 1, 2018

Ghosting

The practice of ending a personal relationship with someone by suddenly and without explanation withdrawing from all communication.

a way of ending a relationship with someone suddenly by stopping all communication with them